Some of My Recent Poetry and Artwork

 Signs

I don’t know him very well:

I know he’s read Kafka and Marx.

 

I don’t know him very well;

I know he is a bit younger than me

And much quieter.

 

I don’t know him very well;

I know he is passionate

About music

And talented.

 

I don’t know him very well;

I know he kisses gently

As though awaiting a further invitation.

The kind of polite kiss that says

He is cautious.

 

I hardly know him at all!

Bad girl that I am,

I ruin everything

With my impulsive heart

Given thoughtlessly

To a near stranger.

 

I hardly knew him but I noticed

He was lonely when I was too,

Noticed that

He was handsome in his own way

Both of us uniquely marked,

Complimentary.

He seemed, in his reticence, to say everything.

 

I didn’t know him very well;

And In my ignorant bliss assumed that this was all

A sort of sign.

But I guess we failed to align

Because soon after that time

He disappeared.

 

Signs are funny like that,

An illusion of time and events

That gives one a sense of deeper meaning,

Always fleeting

As perspectives change…

 

Signs are funny like that,

Showing up in so many faces,

Or a peculiar set of scenery

An inkling of

Significance to be pondered.

 

I don’t know if

This was a sign or a waste of time,

But it’s igniting sparks of recognition within me

Like fireworks.

 

I don’t know if

I should feel sad

But I do feel glad.

 

I don’t need to know him

To feel gratitude for what he meant in my life.

 

Signs of growth.

New Season, New Plans

It’s been a while since I updated this blog, mostly because I haven’t had much spare time this semester. However I am getting back into the swing of things now that school is coming to a close. I’m starting the summer strong with a brand new project I’m finally getting around to:

I’m very excited to announce that I will be starting an online vintage and secondhand clothing boutique via Etsy called Hazelspit Vintage!

Hazelspit Vintage will consist of various vintage and secondhand/thrifted clothes, and curioso. I hope to eventually expand it to include custom designed and handmade t-shirts, as well as other handmade, dyed, and altered clothing, not to mention fine art. For now the shop will be focused entirely on women’s fashion, particularly secondhand designer and brand name clothing.

I’m so thrilled to finally be making moves to get this project off the ground, as it’s been a goal of mine for some time. I’m also developing some more creative projects to occupy my spare time this summer. I’m finally getting around to making music again, and will be collaborating with a couple DJs to get back into the groove of things. My soundcloud may actually contain original works in the future! 😄 I’m also planning a series of interview based documentary style youtube videos on a variety of social and philosophical topics. All in all, the coming season promises many creative outlets!

Making Music (kind of)

So I decided to record a bit of my music practice and put it on youtube. I’m not a huge Adele fan, but the song is fairly simple and fun to play.

I’ve always had a hard time making music. As someone who is a ‘natural’ in a lot of ways, struggling with my own self expression in music has been a point of frustration for me for years. I started playing guitar 6 years ago, and through lack of dedication and general confusion I’ve never managed more than a weak rythym guitar at best. I used to have the voice to make up for it, though I haven’t done any vocal training in years. As part of my new year’s goals (not resolutions, but goals!) I wanted to go back to making music, and it starts here and now. 🙂

Final Draft: Don’t Come Home

Here’s my final video project this semester.

It’s by no means perfects, but I’m proud of my accomplishment.

I don’t know where this came from, I opened my mind to creativity and now it has manifested. I don’t even like horror very much, usually I get too scared, but as I thought of what viable set and props I had it became apparent that would be the most successful route to take. I created this as campy B horror film.
My main influences were: Kill List, Maniac

I also took some influence from the music of Marilyn Manson, and Rasputina.

feel free to comment.

Third is not really a charm

So here’s another draft of my video.

It’s still lacking some essential scenes and components, which I hope to have shot and edited by this weekend. I ran into some compatibility issues with Premiere (I was working on a newer version, and then started working on an older version and there was no way to open it with that). I re-cut all the video components into their little pieces to manipulate them more effectively, but the audio layers were all mixed and I was unable to remove some effects I dislike. I hope to finish recording the spoken audio tracks (all in one go, for consistency of audio quality) to layer on top, and redo some additional audio from my original tracks.

Over all this project would have gone much more smoothly if I had filmed before Thanksgiving and spent time editing then, however I was unable to do that and I fear the final product will look rough as a result. It’s been a learning experience certainly, layering more complex things than I’ve ever tried to do before. If I had time to work on special effects I think I could be very good.

I’m already planning another video to be shot over the coming summer. My friend has always admired cinema and has a good story board for a post-apocalyptic dystopian horror movie, I’m so excited to collaborate with a large group of interested people.